self-absorption
Sometimes I wonder if the very premise of blogging is an encouragement of self-absorption. I have had a tendency to be rather self-absorbed in the past (and present) and it hasn’t done me well. I tend to not think very positively about myself, and so dwelling upon “me” can be kind of dangerous.
Anyway, I’ve been wondering about why I have a blog. I actually have a few, so that makes the question even more poignant. As I have access to the statistics for this site, I know that even on the most active days, this site sees about 5 viewers. So, is blogging merely self-absorption directed at the abyss?
I have contemplated shutting this blog down. It is more-or-less meaningless, and it doesn’t seem to be drawing much of an audience. Because I am the way I am, I agonize over most of my posts. I think about them all day, trying to work out the best approach, the right verbage…yet, in the end what is all of that stress doing for me? For anyone else?
I have recently been trying to “unclutter” various aspects of my life, and I am wondering if blogging is more clutter than it is useful…Still, the thought of abandoning it feels kind of scary. I have, essentially, zero friends, so what else would I really do to “socialize?”
This is not a plea for more readers. This is not a plea for more active participation from whoever reads this. I am simply thinking out loud here. The title of this blog is “Randoms…” after all.